Thinking ahead

I know it's winter, but I can't stop thinking about them. Swimsuits. I think they are one of the most intimidating items to buy, but maybe I just have had some very negative experiences with them in the past. Due to my parent's religion, I have never worn a bikini. I have had a few tankini's back in the day, but last year I had a cut out one piece, and a very modest one at that. This year however, I am planning on showing a little more skin and sexin' it up a bit. I'm nervous.

They have always created problems, because I never could wear a bikini but wanted to, and now that I can, I don't want to let my pasty white skin and not perfect stomach out for the world to see. I'm not shy or embarrassed by my body, but no one's perfect, and I know I will be sucking it in for awhile before I become comfortable.

Where to get them is another problem. Most of my favorite stores don't even have swimwear. Alas, I will have to spend a LOT of time finding the perfect suite. So far, I've found these:




(Left to right: Target, Victoria Secret, and the bottom two are American Eagle.)


Oh gosh, the dilemma. I think I shall just go everywhere and try a lot of them on, and probably even mix tops and bottoms, such as the top and bottom from AE. I guess I do have a few more months to go until I really need one, though.